Today, at church, my pastor gave a great sermon about tithing. A subject so many of us wrestle with. I almost didn’t make it there after a week of awful pmdd symptoms. But, I’m glad I did. Even though Baby B was a piece of work!
Banana was super fidgety. More than she’d ever been, during a church service. She’s getting to that time where she wants to explore….everything! I was all prepared for the service. (At least I thought.) I packed her bag, complete with a spare bottle, snacks, a change of clothes… and a bunch of her favorite toys.
So, first it was the ear phones.
Because my church has a concert-type-worship for the first 10 minutes, it can be pretty loud. A bit much on little ears. I love how my church supplies these! Banana never took issue wearing them. But, today she was pulling at them. Making faces and sounds of frustration. I had to keep grabbing her hand to keep her from ripping them off her head.
We got through the worship fairly unscathed. Then, it was very quiet during the pastor’s (once again, spot on) sermon. I was trying my hardest to listen. Banana was digging her fingernails into my arm. Kicking her feet. Wiggling. I was pulling out a new toy every twelve seconds, it seemed. While making sure to keep her WubbaNub in her mouth, to at least keep her from making bird noises or doing her Chewbacca impersonation.
Oh. What’s a WubbaNub? Only the most important thing ever made in the entire universe!At one point, Baby B took hold of the church bulletin and started waving it like it was a magical wand. She was captivated by this green colored piece of paper. I couldn’t help but to think how silly it was that she would be so entertained by the church bulletin over fifteen dollar toys!?
Baby girl, it’s just a silly piece of green paper. I have so many better things for you!
Of course, I tried to take it back from her. I didn’t want her to God-forbid tear a cornea or get a wicked paper-cut. After I grabbed it, the flood gates opened. Banana let out a scream that, I swear, sounded like she was being tortured! I was mortified. That was my cue to get the heck out of there immediately, if not sooner.
I took her to the main entrance area where they have a TV and chairs set up, so you can still watch the sermon. There was another mom out there walking around with her baby boy. Don’t ask how, but Banana still had a hold of that paper bulletin. I didn’t like her playing with it, but I just kept an eye on her while holding her and trying to listen to the sermon.
I couldn’t help but to think of the irony I was observing. I wonder how God feels when He is trying to get our attention, sometimes before pouring out His blessings. We’re so preoccupied with our own silly distractions that don’t come close to what God has for us. Such as a silly piece of green paper. Convincing ourselves it’s the best thing since slice bread.
I forgot. Sometimes, I can be just as silly and stubborn as my 9 month old little girl.
I thought of all those years I tried so hard to be a mommy. I tried everything I could in my human power. (Well. Almost everything.) I would get my hopes up with my futile efforts. Almost having myself convinced that I was doing what was best for me. It didn’t even feel very good. Meanwhile, God had something EXTRAORDINARY waiting for me, in the right time.
Looking back on this scenario (and so many other past impulses), I can now appreciate how God must have been shaking His head saying, “Oh Rachel. If only you would trust Me. If only you’d stop doing things your way. I have so much more for you than a silly piece of green paper!”
Yup. I suppose I had my share of tantrums and silly pieces of green paper. I think Baby B actually taught me something, today. I left church thanking God for loving me and for still teaching me (His little girl) how to trust in the extraordinary blessings He has for me.
I leave you with a few encouraging verses that will hopefully remind us, both, to wait for God’s best. And, never settle for silly pieces of green paper!
Psalms 27:13-14 I believe that I shall look upon the goodness of the LORD in the land of the living! Wait for the LORD; be strong, and let your heart take courage; wait for the LORD!
Psalms 37:34 Wait for the LORD and keep his way, and he will exalt you to inherit the land; you will look on when the wicked are cut off.
Proverbs 3:5-6 Trust in the LORD with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths.
Isaiah 30:18 Therefore the LORD waits to be gracious to you, and therefore he exalts himself to show mercy to you. For the LORD is a God of justice; blessed are all those who wait for him.
Isaiah 40:31 but they who wait for the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint.
Lamentations 3:25 The LORD is good to those who wait for him, to the soul who seeks him.
Micah 7:7 But as for me, I will look to the LORD; I will wait for the God of my salvation; my God will hear me.